The life I want to live.

Dreaming. Wondering. Praying. Seeking.  Something I do everyday.  The future.  It is so daunting, but so intriguing.  It lies in tomorrow, waiting to be discovered after each day dawns.  It is a thing that I have contemplated time and time again.  It is a topic of conversation that arises, what do you want to do with your life?  What are you going to do after you are finished with what you are doing now?  What is your two year, five year, ten year plan?  But who says I have to have a plan.  I was recently inspired which lead me to the revelation that is this...

I want to be free. Not in the American, you can't take my rights away I can do whatever I want kind of free, but the free as in the only thing I am living for is God.  Where the only one telling me what to do with my life is God.  The only thing that is bounding me to this place or that job is nothing, unless it is God speaking into what He is calling me toward.  Everyday I want to wake up and ask "God where do you want me, Here I am, Chose me, Send me, Use me, for Your Glory Jesus. I want to spend my whole life reliant on what God is speaking into me, what He is placing on my heart.  When missionaries ask for more people to join their ministry, I want to be able to raise my hand, to have the freedom to say "If God calls me, I am there." I get so excited to think how wonderful it is to live in this way, to know that whatever you are doing, wherever you are, you are living in the fullness of the plans God has for you.  So for me it is not a question of what I will do with my future, but where God will lead me. For now, I will wait upon the Lord, and be present in every new day, because my life is in the hands of the maker of heaven.

"I give it all to you God trusting that You'll make 

something beautiful out of me"